Bless your kind heart :*
How do I live with myself? I don’t. I’ve enclosed myself into something so deep inside that not even I myself can find.
I’m at a point where I’m literally broken and I cannot figure out the cure to my sickness. I’ve lost everything that I am. I’ve lost my manhood, my pride and anything that comes along with it.
Living with myself lately has been impossible. Trying to fight this away has proved equally impossible. Its something that I cannot shake. Its something that I no longer have words alone to cure. Its something that I feel that ending my life would cure.
I wish I could make this go away I wish I could fix myself and be the person I know I am. I wish I could make everything perfect and I wish that I could make you happy. Everything inside of me is raging within me. I know I don’t show it but it has literally enveloped@ my entire being.
I love you
I want to be everything you want
I want this to go away
I want to be better
I want to be fixed
I want to be cured.
I want to be rid of
I want you to be happy
I want everything to be okay
I want to cease to exist